23 June 2010

Censorship: Toxic Waste

There are forces at work to silence me and shut down this blog. They are somehow threatened by a voice that exposes the stigma, marginalization and disrespect those with a mental disabilities endure from society and family alike. Since I'm not a mean, angry and bitter person filling the airwaves with vitriol, I surmise that what I write about, from my heart and soul, makes some feel very uncomfortable. Fearful. Angry. Bitter. Exposed. Powerless.

Believing goodwill and peace would be a byproduct, I allowed these forces to censor or "privatize" my thoughts and feelings. I was clearly mistaken. I forgot that censorship is all about manipulation. Manipulating the mind, heart and soul. Manipulating the truth. Painting a false picture to preserve what? For whom? For what purpose? Who benefits? Who cares?

How certain situations and behaviors affect me, the wisdom I've acquired, and the spiritual principles I apply to survive, is what this blog is all about. The truth may hurt but there is no denying when you're in its presence.

Have you noticed the decline in the number or quality of my blogs? This is a direct result of my permitting others to dictate what I can and can not speak or write about. It has polluted my source like the oil spewing forth and spreading like an invasive cancer in the Gulf. This was the intention. To muzzle me. To squelch my spirit. To make me conform. To obliterate my insights.

This agreement on my part, has only served to make me isolated and incapacitated and silent. My reward? Vilification. Nullification. Estrangement. Further mind control. It's a vicious cycle. The byproducts of censorship are always deception and toxic.

censor 

–noun

1.an official who examines books, plays, news reports, motion pictures, radio and television programs, letters, cablegrams, etc., for the purpose of suppressing parts deemed objectionable on moral, political, military, or other grounds. Do blogs count?
2.any person who supervises the manners or morality of others. Think they can 'supervise' adults, too?
3.an adverse critic; faultfinder. Ah, the bitterness.
4.(in the ancient Roman republic) either of two officials who kept the register or census of the citizens, awarded public contracts, and supervised manners and morals. What a job description! Corruption?
5.(in early Freudian dream theory) the force that represses ideas, impulses, and feelings, and prevents them from entering consciousness in their original, undisguised forms. My favorite!
–verb (used with object)
6.to examine and act upon as a censor. Who are you to judge?
7.to delete (a word or passage of text) in one's capacity as a censor. Spinning the story.
8.to ban: A Synonym
This has been a process recognizing that censorship by the privileged has impeded my craft of writing, squelched my spirit and impinged on the mission I am here to achieve. However, the realization of these manipulative effects has freed my spirit from imprisonment. I want to feel the love. Wherever it comes from, whomever brings it along to share. When love is absent or withdrawn. C'est la vie!





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